Thoughts from a journal

Personal thoughts from my writings..

I’ve seen so many memes,

quotes and status that say, “life is to short to hold onto bitterness, grudges, hurts and angers.”

True but these are real created emotions and ignoring them will serve no purpose, ignored emotions will only cause them to resurface later.

Let’s take another look at this meme.

Life is not only to short to serve such emotions.

Life is not only to short to ignore these emotions,

life is to short to create these emotions in someone else’s life.

Life is to short for someone to serve emotions, such as self pleasure that creates

in someone’s life,

reactions that are nothing more then how someone was made to feel.

As a humanity we need to learn how to better care for one another, treat one another, creating a different reflection/reaction of self.

Ex – if I create anger in someone’s life, that anger is nothing more then a reflection of how I treated or cared for someone. That anger is a reflection of me not of themselves.

As a humanity we can do better, we can create better.

We may not all agree but we can all find a middle ground to work from.

-Namaste my friends 💜

Games of the powerful

The games of the powerful know no bounds.

To use genuine injustices through exploitation, tugging on the emotional strings of a people is a disgrace to all who suffer at the hands of the powerful.

The powerful = those who claim to speak on the people’s behalf.

When reason is lost fools speak. —Beth Tremaglio

“Tomorrow”

Hospital conversations…

Had a conversation with a patient that is worth sharing.

Patient is on the younger side.

Me: how are you? I need to take your vitals.

Patient: okay. I’m just miserable. This is my life now, this is what I’ve become.

The patient continued to explain what happened but the last part of what she said stuck with me.

“You never really realize how much you haven’t lived until you can’t anymore.

There’s so much i had wanted to experience, people I had wanted to reconnect with, places and things I wanted to do but you know, tomorrow. I’ll make that call tomorrow. I’ll do that thing tomorrow. I’ll experience this thing I’ve been wanting to tomorrow. Well look, I’m in my tomorrow now and most of what I’m doing now is wondering why I waited, the regrets. I never really realized I wasn’t living until tomorrow came and showed me.”

We continued to talk but what she said really stuck with me. All the memes that say “it’s never to late to begin.” Sometimes it is, sometimes tomorrow comes and just grabs your step and stops you. Sometimes the way we are living isn’t really living, sometimes all this stuff we are doing is nothing more then a distraction to life and we get comfortable existing.

So what is it, what do you wanna experience, touch, feel, see and just do to wake it all up inside?

Notes

From my notes and personal journey..

What is it about holding onto emotions that no longer serve you.

Holding an emotion to try and prove a point, or to be validated by the giver of the wound(the one you are bonded to)will do nothing more then keep your pain process cycling over and over, without healing.

Letting go of those emotions will release them back to the giver and they will reap to whatever degree they do.

The best way to release these wounds/scars left by another is to deal with each and every one of them, some of what you learn about self will surprise.

Holding an emotion in will do nothing more then bury itself within the soil of your being to bare fruits later in life. Dealing with your emotions will free you from becoming their servant later in life and projecting that onto another.

Heal

I had written this for someone but sometimes we all need to hear this. After reading all the way through.

Read again but only the words with * next to them. Originally posted on Facebook and was unable to italicize the words…

Heal….

If people choose to leave you, let them.

*Your*

reaction should be

grounded.

If people choose to treat you like less of person, let them.

*Worth*

is found within.

If people choose to discard you, let them.

*More*

People who truly

love and appreciate you

will have a clearer path.

If people lie to you, let them

*To*

force a lie to the light will fail.

That lie will be found by its own actions. Be still.

If people make you feel guilty for a well deserved reaction because of the wrong they’ve done, let them.

*Someone,*

will be there to bring vindication. Let it not be you.

If people are to busy to keep a relationship going, let them go.

*And that*

action will someday bear its own fruit, and they will feel all you’ve felt. So be kind but keep moving.

If people say they never meant to hurt you but hurt you anyway, let them. You see them now.

If someone doesn’t want to hurt you they simply won’t. Believe what they show you.

*Someone*

will help to guide you back and you will mend.

If people act careless with your emotions and heart, let them go.

Don’t hold onto someone who is willing to lose you. They’ve moved on and let go, now it

*Should be you.*

Heal…

Review

Very grateful for a book review that came in from the Philippines..

Beth Tremaglio/ Quiet Echoes’ pieces that the Philippines and its people can relate.

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I really enjoyed reading the whole book! Her poetry are deeply provoking since it talks about societal issues and human nature that we also experience and see in our country.

My favorites are “I Have Seen”, “Becoming What You Hate”, and my heart really cried for “Selling Hope”.

Hope y’all would be able to read these wonderful pieces. You may grab a copy of Quiet Echos at Amazon for only $6.38.

Forgiveness

There are those life moments. Someone shows you themselves. Someone you’ve trusted for years has become someone else and someone you thought would stay has decide to settle elsewhere.

I’ve battled with forgiveness for awhile. I’ve stayed angry, hurt, bitter and desired to take matters into my own hands and help the “reaping and sowing” process find its way.

Through this warring of forgiveness and unforgiveness you get tired and reflect, ponder for truth.

I had always thought forgiveness meant forgetting and if the forgetting didn’t happen well, my forgiveness was flawed. I had always thought forgiveness was about the doer of the wrong and less about me.

I’ve warred in mind and spirit for real resolve.

Forgiveness is more about me and less about the other person.

Forgiveness is a process but deeming someone unforgivable is much easier, seems to offer up some silent vindication for the wrong done.

Forgiveness is for my freedom.

My freedom from bitterness, hatred, coldness, anger, and desire for recompose.

All of these emotions are chains.

All of those emotions will bind us to sleepless nights and bleeding days.

All of those emotions can outgrow the best of us and destroy our spirits. Those emotions will never affect the doer of the act, no matter how many fights, talks, texts or gossip,

none of those emotions will ever reach inside the other person and bring redemption, the most they will do is destroy you, handicap the soul and turn all that is good to dust.

These emotions over time will wrap their chains around and drag you through illness and deserted streets no matter how busy they seem, to you they will be empty.

Forgiveness will allow the reaping and sowing process to have a perfect work on the person(s) that have done the ill deed. At some point the enemy that resides within themselves will turn and devour what’s left of them. Forgiveness would rather see all of that bring redemptions to the one in need. We all deal with trauma that cause us to act and react.

This day I chose to forgive despite the warring in my emotions. I will war to forgive and allow all that reaps and sows to have a work in you and free you.